Hey Zorkler, I too, am sorry about your situation. They say time heals all, but I know for sure letting yourself get back on the motorcycle is good therapy. You just can't rush the process.
I haven't been able to ride for a month now due to an injury resulting in excruciating pain in my right shoulder, arm and hand. I am unable to slow down the pain meds long enough to clear my head and try it again right now, but I did wake up feeling some better on a Saturday morning two weeks ago and saw my future. I thought for a while that I was nearing recovery and it seemed the day had come that riding my bike was an option again. It was the one thing I hadn't been able to do that I missed the most.
I managed to slowly get my gear on, do a walk around of the machine performing my preflight inspection because she had sat covered a while. I got so excited and was taking deep breaths of fresh morning air as I rolled her out of the stable. With a push of a button she roared to life and my heart started pounding so hard I could hear it in my helmet.
I pulled myself together and became focused on the ride. As I started out I felt like I was testing my physical condition so I was stuck in that mode for a few miles to see if this was going to even be possible to continue. I was slightly uncomfortable due to the weight on my shoulder and palm of my right hand because of the position my bike forces you to lean into, but my mind wanted to continue on so the discomfort became secondary.
I rode, and rode, never leaving one set of mountain and valley routes within my County but enjoying the activity to the highest degree. I don't know when I've ever enjoyed riding so much. The pain even worsened as I got further into the ride but I wouldn't let it affect my control of the bike. I sat up and took my hand off the throttle to stretch almost every time I was decelerating down into a valley.
After nearly an hour and a half it dawned on me that my Wife would come home and wonder where I was. She had no inc ling that I was going to try to ride again so soon after my injury, so not wanting to get my *** chewed off when I got back I turned down a series of roads that would lead me back to the house. The scenery was new to me and so beautiful that I even turned around at the next intersection and covered the section of country road again and once again back the original direction.
I was, for the first time in weeks able to forget about my situation and the chronic pain and enjoy my life for a moment. That made me more determined than ever to see myself through whatever had to be done to heal up so I might continue on living normally and never taking advantage of the days I had my health and the ability to do whatever I want.
The recovery has slowed some, partially I think, due to the fact that I had to return to my job this week. I'm pretty much in pain all the time again, and didn't realize just how hard physically my job is until I had to do it with limited use of my right arm, and being right handed even made it more difficult. The results aren't back yet from my MRI so I don't even know what's torn up in my shoulder, but I was guaranteed by the Doctor that either way, whether surgery was in my future or not, that physical therapy would be. I really don't mind because if it will enable me to ride again someday then I can continue my mental therapy.
I wish you the very best in your recovery and hope this personal story of mine has inspired you.
Roger
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