Howard
When a woman loves a man it is selfless. The finest piece of meat, the last beer, these are small samples of a heart that wants happiness in another heart. Grief can be so profound, I am now experiencing it over my brother, but ultimately we must honor those we love and do what is best for ourselves. Somehow you must find the ability to put happiness in your heart, and make your woman happy.
I know you wife relished your love while alive and is watching you now from her lofty perch wanting, wanting, wanting you to heal.
Best wishes.
Gillian