So it was my fault I planned as I did, my fault I felt I "Needed" to finish well, BUT most important here: It was my fault I had my priorities all wrong. My goals were selfish and should have been made around my family- not made my family work around my goals. Lesson learned for me. I am not done LD riding, but it has been moved out of the "Top" priority spot.
Tony, I know where you're coming from. I recall having a "why" conversation with you in Denver after I wrapped up the Butt Lite 6. I have decided to have LD riding take a back seat to family. Money and time are scarce resources these days and I have 2 boys that have things they'd like to do. Like their dad, they pick expensive stuff...
For me, my "why" was why am I doing things to try to be competitive that I don't enjoy? Whether it was building a route where I pass up bonuses I find interesting and would like to visit b/c they are off the optimal route or of little value. Riding down a goat path at o'dark 30 or the need you feel to spend the least amount of time possible at a bonus. I don't need an hour to take in the World's Largest 6-pack of beer, but if I want to spend longer than 27 seconds at a bonus, I don't want to worry about blowing up my rally. Maybe I was just doing it wrong or I realized I will never compete with the big dogs, but I definitely wasn't having enough fun to warrant my approach.
I do like having a rally book full of places to go see, and enjoy riding far to get there. I like the rallies where you get the rally book in advance and can really spend some time with it. We still plan to do a yearly 24-36 hour rally, but it will just be for fun.
I think you made a very respectable choice. You've made many great rides and had a great IBR finish (something that's still on my bucket list). Nothing wrong with shifting priorities.