evilmedic13
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Okay, last week i went to see my doc about help in not smoking. He gave this medication thats supposed to help after a week of taking it. Today is my one week day, and I'm sticking w/ the plan no matter how hard it gets. I've been seeing too many pt's w/ lung problems and have had some diff breathing at times myself recently. Not to mention the prize after 1 year off smokes. Honestly though a 2nd bike doesn't mean **** right now, all I can do is think about having a cigarette and honestly it has only been 4 hrs w/o one. I can't sleep because of the fits and there's nothing to do besides watch info-crap-mercials. The dogs are gonna love me now 'cuz they've walked about 3miles longer than the usual 1a.m walk just so I wasn't near the house for the first 2 nic fits.
I've tried before and always found a reason not to. Last year I tried once really hard and a 1/2 hearted attempt but when the wife to be said she wasn't quitting til after the wedding my effort and ambition just jumped out the window. I now realize that I 'm quitting for me and it doesn't matter if she quits or not, I don't wanna die w/ a ****** o2 tank and 80ft of hose attached to me everywhere I go. I'm sorry to be ramblin but I honestly have nobody to talk to on this matter, all the ex smokers I know"just quit" except for my friend Greg,but he goes to AA and said he used that method.
I just wanna know one thing when is the storm over?
I realize I am an addict, i cannot go back, if I do i start back at hour one. Right now I'm counting the hours and soon they will be days and weeks and years, but I will not stop counting. This sound easy to some but if I'm not sleeping or busy I have at least one an hour. The last time I was unable to smoke for 4 or more hours, I was on a plane to hawaii and smoked 4 or 5 1 hr before we boarded, and then slept 5 out of 8 hrs. As soon as we landed I smoked 2 in 15mins.
This is not going to be easy, but nothing worth anyrthing ever is, I guess. There were some easy girlfriends that were worth it but, exceptions rather than the rule.Thanks for any advice, Im going to go vomit now.
I've tried before and always found a reason not to. Last year I tried once really hard and a 1/2 hearted attempt but when the wife to be said she wasn't quitting til after the wedding my effort and ambition just jumped out the window. I now realize that I 'm quitting for me and it doesn't matter if she quits or not, I don't wanna die w/ a ****** o2 tank and 80ft of hose attached to me everywhere I go. I'm sorry to be ramblin but I honestly have nobody to talk to on this matter, all the ex smokers I know"just quit" except for my friend Greg,but he goes to AA and said he used that method.
I just wanna know one thing when is the storm over?
I realize I am an addict, i cannot go back, if I do i start back at hour one. Right now I'm counting the hours and soon they will be days and weeks and years, but I will not stop counting. This sound easy to some but if I'm not sleeping or busy I have at least one an hour. The last time I was unable to smoke for 4 or more hours, I was on a plane to hawaii and smoked 4 or 5 1 hr before we boarded, and then slept 5 out of 8 hrs. As soon as we landed I smoked 2 in 15mins.
This is not going to be easy, but nothing worth anyrthing ever is, I guess. There were some easy girlfriends that were worth it but, exceptions rather than the rule.Thanks for any advice, Im going to go vomit now.