Hey Rad, I love the name of your yellow cat "Rumble." How did the name come about? Lia sure was a pretty calico. Take good care of Rumble.
You can hear him purring from 2 rooms away.
Thank you again all, your words are,indeed, helping. To those with critters, some thoughts.
One of my big regrets is that, in the final couple days of her life, Lia was amidst strangers, mostly. You see, I wrote the piece I started this with on Tuesday. Lia was scheduled to be euthanized Wed am, but the wife and I decided we weren't yet ready to quit. Lia went to the University of Minnesota Small Animal Hospital, admittedly one of the, if not the, best in the world. Surgery followed the discovery of a mass in her gut, which proved to be a solid hair mass in her small intestine. In a younger animal, recovery would be swift and complete, but Lia was no longer young, and her deteriorating condition had left her in such a weakened state, that recovery was proving difficult. At 2 am Saturday morning, we got the call from the ICU that Lia had gone into respiratory arrest, that she had been resuscitated, but that it was likely brain damage had occurred. Her heart rate was low, they had her on multiple drugs to bring her blood pressure up, and they were not working. We got there at 2:30 am, and for a while, it seemed a miracle might occur-we held her head, stroked her body best as we could as she had multiple IV's running into her, a feeding tube exiting her abdomen, 2 monitors and 4 IV machines surrounding her, it looked like a scene from ER. As we talked and fondled, her heart rate came up, blood pressure finally moved into the normal range, temperature (she was being heated by a machine too,as well as on oxygen) started climbing into a normal range, but her unblinking stare, her absolute stillness, spoke volumes. A blood transfusion had not helped much, her red cells were dissolving into nothingness. At 12 am Sat morning, the ultimate decision made, we held her for the last time as the pentathol ended her battle.
On the way home, my wife asked "would you do it again?", and I quickly answered "of course-hope is worth the fight". But on reflection, I'm not so sure. Lias last hours cost a fortune, but money is not so much the issue, starting Monday I'll just make some more, but how the money was spent is what's important. Several thousand dollars could have helped a lot of shelter kitties, rather than being spent in a futile, selfish attempt at preserving something that was already gone. Her last memories were likely not of us, but of strangers sticking her, shaving her, putting her to sleep, waking her up. Had we just gone ahead and said goodbye Wednesday, she would have seen us last, and we would have seen her whole and comfortable as she left. I can't even think of the horrors a family faces as they are forced to watch a loved one melt away into nothingness, human euthanasia is a subject for another time, likely another place. It just all sucks so fucking deep.